july 21

yo.

at this moment my ears are up to a 0 gauge. i used to think i'd stop at an inch but now i'm not so sure. we'll see i guess. i don't like the big weird gangly ones but... the bigger they're getting the more i like them.

so right now at this moment as i type i have these piercings with metal currently in them: two lobes (0 gauge), two dimples, two nipples, one vert hood, two rooks and a daith in my left ear. 10 total. i can put metal through three more: septum, and two second lobes. in my whole life i've had a total of 18: eyebrow, nostril, snakebites and bellybutton. (i guess this was just for the record.) i've had my dimples done 3 different times. not sure where i'll go from here. piercing wise, that is. been thinking about transdermals. but they're pricey and they only last a few years. not worth it to me. i can do so much in my ears... but fucking cartilage hurts like a mutha!

haven't had a tattoo done in so long... i am at a crossroads with what i want to do on my back. my original idea was scarring. getting mine and the boys' birth month flowers scarred. covering my whole back. it would be really cool if a) i could handle the pain and b) i could find someone with enough talent to get it done really well. my new idea comes from a picture i found in a text book. the flowers silhouette (black) and behind them a smoke cloud rising from where they're growing, in rainbow. the smoke cloud detailed with curls and wisps. hmm... definitely pondering.

soon! and now!

so i am going up in gauges in my ears. hurts worse than the piercing i got the same day. vert hood! never did i think i would put metal through my beautiful peach. i love it. i even like that its kinda off center. maybe i'll get another one.

i've only had it one week.

i've masturbated twice and they've both been the best orgasms i've ever had. (the last being better than the first.)



my tax refund is coming in 6 days. i want my back done. but i think i should finish my right arm. i'm tired of being incomplete. i have money put specifically towards finishing it. about a thousand. !!!!