july 21

yo.

at this moment my ears are up to a 0 gauge. i used to think i'd stop at an inch but now i'm not so sure. we'll see i guess. i don't like the big weird gangly ones but... the bigger they're getting the more i like them.

so right now at this moment as i type i have these piercings with metal currently in them: two lobes (0 gauge), two dimples, two nipples, one vert hood, two rooks and a daith in my left ear. 10 total. i can put metal through three more: septum, and two second lobes. in my whole life i've had a total of 18: eyebrow, nostril, snakebites and bellybutton. (i guess this was just for the record.) i've had my dimples done 3 different times. not sure where i'll go from here. piercing wise, that is. been thinking about transdermals. but they're pricey and they only last a few years. not worth it to me. i can do so much in my ears... but fucking cartilage hurts like a mutha!

haven't had a tattoo done in so long... i am at a crossroads with what i want to do on my back. my original idea was scarring. getting mine and the boys' birth month flowers scarred. covering my whole back. it would be really cool if a) i could handle the pain and b) i could find someone with enough talent to get it done really well. my new idea comes from a picture i found in a text book. the flowers silhouette (black) and behind them a smoke cloud rising from where they're growing, in rainbow. the smoke cloud detailed with curls and wisps. hmm... definitely pondering.

soon! and now!

so i am going up in gauges in my ears. hurts worse than the piercing i got the same day. vert hood! never did i think i would put metal through my beautiful peach. i love it. i even like that its kinda off center. maybe i'll get another one.

i've only had it one week.

i've masturbated twice and they've both been the best orgasms i've ever had. (the last being better than the first.)



my tax refund is coming in 6 days. i want my back done. but i think i should finish my right arm. i'm tired of being incomplete. i have money put specifically towards finishing it. about a thousand. !!!!

nom tattoooooooos

just emailed sean. don't know why. because he's so fucking cute always has been always will be and he smells terrible and great at the same time and i told him i want him to finish my chest. veggies! yumyum

wrrt

its working! its working!

i think my left dimple will scar badly. but it is healing. and the right one too.

god i wish i had money to get everything done.

yesterday for the work halloween party i had michael bowen draw "book worm" on my knuckles because a) its cool and b) i'm going to get that done fo rizzle.

oh my arm. oh my back. oh my legs and chest and head. one day you will be adorned with more than just pink skin and light hair.

dimples and such

a lot of things are coming together right now and my face is healing. my dimples were giving me a really hard time, because i was giving them a hard time. i kept playing with them, cleaning the scabs away with dirty fingers. i KNOW thats a bad idea. but it was like... compulsion to touch them.

so i've been washing my whole face twice a day and not touching my piercings except for these times. and they're healing. i couldn't be happier. they are really noticeable right now since i shaved my head into a mohawk. i don't want them ugly-ing up my face. my zits are going away too haha.

i am going to schedule an appointment for my harry potter sleeve tattoo consultation. todd knows its going to be after i get my tax return. i'm beyond excited. and! joe state told me jayla traded her massage table for tattoos! i'm going to attempt to do the same, though i think i'd prefer to have my back scarred in trade, i'll take what i can get if they don't do scarification. i have plenty of ideas for the rest of my body.

now that my head is shaved i've been contemplating a head tattoo. i'd want it to be girly and cute but strong too, because its tough to get a head tattoo. tough with multiple meanings. stars maybe. make it look like stars just fell on my head and are falling off. that could be interesting and beautiful if done right. but i am terrible at explaining ideas like that. i will maybe brainstorm for head tattoo ideas.

friday the two week mark!

tomorrow i go get my bars in my dimples re-sized! yay! i won't be so buggy! i won't bite down on metal when i'm eating! i can brush my teeth without holding the metal! i'm so excited! pictures to follow!!

cut. it. out.

when i went to get my cheeks done, the chick, Lisa Blue, is the piercer there at adorn but in her spare time also does scarification stuff. strange that this suddenly seems sooo important to me when i never considered it before. i think maybe i wasn't ready. but now i want it. i need it.

the flowers i'm getting done. mine and my kids' birth month flowers on my back. B E A utiful. i'm so excited. she does cutting or branding and i believe for this one cutting will be better. i do want to do a brand though.

anyway here are the flowers i want scalpel'd into my back.